The Little Trials: Coming off conqueror?

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snowman christmas-316448_640.jpgIt’s Thursday. I just off the phone with my 14yo daughter who is, as usual for this time of night, busy with her homework. Life keeps moving.

My life view has been more optimistic since being approved for disability.  I’m not even sure I blogged about that! It was such a weird feeling: relief, but still with the unknown financial aspect that was finally communicated to me this last week. I was so happy, and the worst was behind me, but…there was that 60 day window they had to figure out what I’d get. I also was unsure as to when: so was my lawyer. Lots of big possible time frames.  I am so grateful that this is all done and behind me. I’m also grateful for the “little people” at Social Security whose job it is to do this sort of thing. Sounds like a lot of stress to me.

So, as getting around in the cold was the theme of my last post, so it is with this one. Thankfully I haven’t had to deal with the cold, biting wind again since then. It’s been cold, but without medication issues and without the wind it’s actually possible for me to walk around in the cold and even sort of like it. The past two days I did a lot of errands getting on and off the bus and walking distances of up to 1 1/2 miles/time. I’ve been feeling pretty well this week. Today I really needed to rest from it, but I’m so happy with my ability to get out and get some things done. I think that when it comes to my morale, having snow on the ground makes me happy and somehow makes it easier than just the cold without the snow, even if there isn’t a lot of it. It also helps that there are Christmas decorations everywhere. So much more cheerful.

So I’m feeling extra grateful today. Today was a clear-cut “need to rest” and also a day where I felt like I could pat myself on the back for having done some semi-hard things during the past two weeks.  I still don’t know for sure if I’ll be able to get a car with my disability back pay, and to be honest I do still have my hopes up. But….I’m getting around. I’ve been feeling kind of cut off from life again the past week or two, but with the coming holidays there are a lot of things planned, so I’ll be able to get out again.

 

 

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About pickleclub1971

I'm a single mom of 2: a Southern CA native, who transplanted to Utah 4 years ago. I have one 18 year old who is off to the Ivy League, and one 14 year old who is in high school. I served an LDS Mission to Southern France and I’ve also lived in the San Francisco Bay Area, Idaho, Northern Arizona, and New Hampshire. I love 80’s music, classical music, choral music, playing the piano, singing, speaking what French I still remember, and talking about history and music with whomever will listen. I love that my kids are better at math than I was at their age. (But they still get frequent historical references from me…anyone familiar with Ducky from NCIS? He’s that kind of medical examiner, I’m that kind of mom.) My kids also think I know all the lyrics to all the songs from the 80’s, mainly because I’m good at making them up and faking it when I don’t know. Sometimes they catch me. I’m currently disabled with PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder). I want to get better (of course) and be an advocate for trauma survivors and others with mental illnesses. I like people in general. I suffer from the delusion that I can make everyone my friend, but of course that isn’t possible: but I still believe that the world can be a better place.

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