The sleepiness will just not pass….


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10/29, despite what the date stamp says. I can’t seem to fix that.

I know it will, because I’ve been through this before. In fact, I’ve been through worse. It started when I needed a medication change about two weeks ago (see previous post, too tired to add a link at the moment). I’ve had a few good, or better, days since then.

I woke up for about an hour this morning to take my thyroid medication, and then I listened to a couple General Conference talks. They help me to keep a positive attitude and retain my sanity, especially when things are hard. I wouldn’t call this “especially hard,” just especially annoying. I went back for a “nap” and didn’t wake up until 5pm. That’s particularly annoying. I also had a lot of the less frightening but more generic nightmares that I have: hours and hours it seems of trying to get to a certain place. There are endless versions of it, but at least this one involved a water park.

As usual, I had many blessings in the last 24 hours. I made have missed my appointments yesterday, which I greatly dislike, but I saw friends at church for “sports night” and had some fun conversations. I was able to get my tween daughter on the phone, which can be difficult these days. She seems to want to talk with me, but she’s always too busy. It makes my week if she can spare a few minutes. There’s no use in my adding to her guilt about it because I can tell that she already feels it and that it’s one of the reasons that makes it more difficult.

I was able to see extended family the day before yesterday.

As for sleep, again, I’m just feeling the need to get back in bed. It may seem unbelievable to anyone who has never been through it. Hopefully it will mean that I’ve just overdone it recently, plus my meds need adjusting again or just getting used to (it can take a while), and most likely I will at some point, hopefully tomorrow, have a lot more energy because I rested. And hopefully there will be no pesky nightmares tonight.

Additional blessing: I am not feeling tired of gluten free peanut butter sandwiches. (Meaning: made with gf bread). Instead, I’m feeling rather grateful that they fill me up and enable me to lie back down and sleep without waking up hungry.


About pickleclub1971

I'm a single mom of 2: a Southern CA native, who transplanted to Utah 4 years ago. I have one 18 year old who is off to the Ivy League, and one 14 year old who is in high school. I served an LDS Mission to Southern France and I’ve also lived in the San Francisco Bay Area, Idaho, Northern Arizona, and New Hampshire. I love 80’s music, classical music, choral music, playing the piano, singing, speaking what French I still remember, and talking about history and music with whomever will listen. I love that my kids are better at math than I was at their age. (But they still get frequent historical references from me…anyone familiar with Ducky from NCIS? He’s that kind of medical examiner, I’m that kind of mom.) My kids also think I know all the lyrics to all the songs from the 80’s, mainly because I’m good at making them up and faking it when I don’t know. Sometimes they catch me. I’m currently disabled with PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder). I want to get better (of course) and be an advocate for trauma survivors and others with mental illnesses. I like people in general. I suffer from the delusion that I can make everyone my friend, but of course that isn’t possible: but I still believe that the world can be a better place.

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